Chapter 6
A few minutes after Levi had left I sat at the kitchen table again, staring at the piece of paper where he had written down his phone number and address.
'Levi Ackerman huh?' I stared at it some more before deciding to write him a SMS, thanking him again and wishing him a good night.
After I got his reply I went to bed with a smile on my face. I layed there for a long time before I looked at the red numbers beside my head.
1a.m. it read.
I even know why I couldn't sleep.
His face, voice and actions just didn't leave my thoughts. His steel grey eyes and this frown on his face which seemed to soften over time.
Everything he told me replayed in my head. The fact that he's from France and that his whole family was killed except for his uncle Kenny.
He came to America when he was twelve. He lived with a guy named Erwin Smith and his family until he was 18, so until last year. At school he got to know more people like a girl called Hanji. She's a crazy scientist.
He was with a girl, Petra Ral, until he noticed with 17 that he's gay.
At that moment I stopped my thoughts. It took me some time but then I suddenly sat up, face bright red. 'Oh my gosh!! He's gay! Why didn't I react then and there? I'm so stupid' I thought hanging my head in shame.
I plopped down again with a heavy sigh while my heartbeat got faster. The problem wasn't that he's gay. The problem is that I'm gay and my fast beating heart and the fact that I can't sleep because I'm thinking only of him.
A few seconds later I sat up again, shaking my head and then clapping my hands on my cheeks.
"That can't be it! No, no, no, no, no! I don't even know this guy!... Okay he told me so much but I know him for not even a day!" I contiuned my rant while walking out of my room and into the kitchen, getting myself a glass of water.
"I might be sick...but...if not then I guess I don't have another option than to give up. I mean...why would he fall for me out of all people?" I slumped down to the kitchen floor, head on my knees.
"Just so stupid. I'm so stupid. He's like... perfect but I'm just... a loser that never in his life had seen anything than this apartment." Tears slowly slipped from my eyes.
"I'm hopeless..." and with that I had fallen asleep on the kitchen floor, a last tear escaping my eyes.
